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This is another diary post. Before I write anymore accounts of days out and holidays I really ought to tell you about a few things that have been happening lately.
The saddest event of all is that my mother-in-law died on Thursday 13th August. She had been in very poor health for some time and had had to move into a nursing home a few months ago. This made her unhappy but she knew that she was incapable of living on her own any more and was doing her best to come to terms with the changes this entailed. My brother-in-law had visited her during the afternoon of the day she died and hadn’t been home long when he got a call from the nursing home telling him she had collapsed and the ambulance had been called for. He telephoned us and said he had been told that there wasn’t much hope that she would survive and we were to prepare for the worst. He phoned us again a few minutes later to say she had died.
The strange thing was that we were only an hour or so away from Manchester (where my husband’s family live) when Chris phoned us. Thursday 13th August was the day we travelled to the Peak District with our caravan to spend a week there on holiday and with the hope of visiting Mum-in-law. We had set up the caravan where we usually stay in Leek, Staffordshire and put up the awning on the side of the van already. We had then driven to Sheffield (about an hour’s journey) to take Elinor to stay with Alice for the week. Alice had given us a cup of tea and we had left the girls there together and were driving back to Leek. We had almost got to Buxton when Chris’s call came through.
We went to Manchester the next morning. The rain, which had started when we got to Sheffield the night before, was still coming down so the roads were very wet and some were flooded. We went to Chris’s house and spent some time talking to him and his partner Annie and then went out to have some lunch together in a pub. During the afternoon we went to Joyce’s (Mum-in-law’s) nursing home and sorted out all her belongings, taking some away with us but donating all of her clothes and a lot of her equipment and wheel-chair to the nursing home. They were pleased to accept all we could give them as there are many old people in homes who have no relations to get them clothes and other necessaries.
The Coroner couldn’t establish a cause of death despite a post mortem and there have been a number of tests done and an inquest has been held. All extremely painful for my husband and his brother. Eventually the date for the funeral was set and it duly took place yesterday 2nd September. There was a large turn-out of family and friends and all went smoothly and we hope Joyce would have approved. Richard had the difficult task of writing the eulogy which he delivered with dignity. The wake was in the upper rooms of a nearby pub and that was a success too.
Our holiday was a weird one to say the least! Richard’s 62nd birthday was on Sunday 16th August so we went to a church in Leek and said more prayers for Joyce and then went to a café for brunch. There wasn’t much else we could do. We met Alice and Elinor in Bakewell on Tuesday 18th August and told them the sad news.
This was one of Joyce’s favourite pieces of music.
A lot of our time has been spent (as usual) in keeping appointments with doctors, with physiotherapists and at hospital. Not a week goes by, it seems, without one or other of us having to go to see some specialist or another! Elinor went to her yearly appointment with the physiotherapist and was told she needed to do more calf-stretching exercises. I’m not sure that she has done anything about it yet! Richard went to the hospital for yet another MRI brain scan but won’t hear the results until he sees the specialist in a few weeks. He also went to the eye clinic and all seems okay. I took my Mum to her eye clinic again last week and she had to return there on Tuesday for another eye injection. I went to the Rheumatology clinic for a check-up and it seems I am in a medically-induced remission. My blood tests show excellent results and I have lost all the fluid on my finger joints. The nurse suggested I give up one of my drugs for a month to see if it made any difference to the problem I have in my throat. It hasn’t made any difference at all, so I’m back on the drug and my GP at my local surgery has asked the Ear, Nose and Throat clinic to give me an appointment so they can investigate further.
Alice works part-time in the University library in Sheffield and some months ago went to a number of internal job interviews. She desperately needs a full-time job, preferably one in which she can use her librarianship skills instead of filling shelves and moving crates of books about as she is doing at the moment. She was disappointed to hear that though she had been offered a job one grade higher than the one she was doing, it was still a part-time job and as the hours were fewer she would be earning less money. After a lot of thought she decided to accept the job and after some discussion with her supervisor she has been given a few more hours and is earning slightly more money than in her last position. She moved house at the weekend and she is now sharing with a few other people (one of them a friend of hers) and will be paying less rent. This will be a Good Thing! She has finished the corrections and amendments to her PhD and has handed it back in to have it read through again. When that’s done she will have to get it printed – not just one copy but several – which will be yet another expense for her. We will then hear when she will receive her Doctorate which we all hope to attend if possible. She had her 30th birthday on the 24th July and her friends got together and arranged a Haunted Sheffield Tour for her to go on which she found great fun.
Elinor wasn’t able to go into college to collect her GCSE results as we were still away in the Peak District so she got the results in the post. She didn’t do as well as she had hoped but she passed three out of the four exams she took. She got a D in Maths so she will have to re-take that exam next year. She got an A in Psychology but only Cs in English and Art. We are pleased that she managed to do as well as this because she missed two whole years of school and at one stage we didn’t think she’d ever be able to get any qualifications at all. The college have found that the grades the students got this year were generally much lower than expected. I don’t know if this is the fault of the college or if the marking was stricter than usual. She went into college last Wednesday for her enrolment and was disappointed to find she can’t take the Graphic Art course she wanted to do because of her failed Maths exam. She will do a years Art and Design course and re-take her Maths and then she will decide what she does next. The Graphic Design tutors say that they will assess her work after six weeks this term with a view to moving her onto the Graphic Design course if she is doing very well.
Richard has now retired. His final week at work was last week and he had a good send-off from his colleagues. He will be giving back his fleet car tomorrow and has ordered a new car of his own which will be delivered in just over a week’s time. He hasn’t had time to appreciate the fact of his retirement yet. He still has a number of things to sort out with his brother with regard to his mother. Once that has been done he will relax a little and then begin to feel retired.
I spent a lovely day in Norwich with my dear friend Wendy. We met at school 45 years ago! Her husband was working in this area for a few days so she joined him and took the opportunity to visit former neighbours of theirs and to see me. Fortunately the weather was fine and we were able to find somewhere to sit outside and have coffee and a long chat.
We then went to have a look at the Roman Catholic Cathedral which is an enormous building and has many fine features. I’ll probably make a post about it sometime soon. We walked from there to the Plantation Garden. We had a lovely lunch together and I then walked back with her to her hotel. In thinking about this special day I am amazed to realise that I cannot remember the last time I spent a day out with her or in fact with any friend. I very, very occasionally meet someone for coffee or lunch or I visit Wendy’s house in company with my family but a whole day away from home with a friend enjoying myself…. no, I can’t recall anything since I was in my early twenties!
I always look forward to having my piano tuned each year. Kimble Reynolds is a very skillful man who not only tunes pianos but can also build, restore and repair them. He has a piano gallery in Blundeston in Suffolk and has recently invented a way of teaching people how to read music which doesn’t entail having to learn the names of the notes. His invention is called Noterettes. He is a lovely man and I enjoy talking to him and we spend most of his visit laughing together.
With all the upheaval of Joyce’s death and Richard’s retirement, we haven’t had time for much gardening or walking locally. We managed to visit Dunwich beach for an hour on Saturday. We bought some chips from the fish and chip restaurant in the beach car-park and then walked on the beach. The weather was quite over-cast and there was a very strong wind blowing but it was good to be away from the house for a while.
Thanks for visiting!
Cynthia Reyes said:
Ah, Clare. My condolences to your family and all others who loved Joyce. What a strange time it’s been for you and your family. and, in the middle of some sad or challenging news, life goes on in its many ways. Just today I checked your blog again to see if you had any new posts — you’ve been on my mind and I should have sent an email.
Sending you a big Canadian hug. (I mean that the hug is big, not the Canadian.)
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you so much Cynthia! You may not be big but your Canadian heart is ❤ My mother-in-law was a hardy soul but was finding life a real challenge towards the end of her life. She had no fear of death and looked forward to meeting her husband again. It has been a really strange summer, not helped by the erratic weather. I have a fig tree covered in fruit that will not ripen and near frosts are threatened!
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Lavinia Ross said:
Clare, our thoughts and prayers are with you, and all Joyce’s family and friends. A busy time for you with many changes as well. I will plant perennials for Joyce here in our garden this autumn.
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clarepooley33 said:
How very kind, Lavinia – thank-you.
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Jane said:
Hi Clare,
I’m so sorry to read of your mother-in-law’s death. The inquest would have certainly been an added stress to the situation. You’ve also had such a very busy time lately with Richard’s retirement, so many specialists’ appointments and your children’s jobs/education. I was very pleased to read of the improvement in your hands. That’s good news. I hope the other appointments and tests end up with positive news. Thank you for sharing all the news of your latest happenings as well as the beautiful photos.
Please pass on our condolences to your partner. I’m glad Joyce had loving relatives in her life. As you wrote, other elderly people in care don’t always have the material and emotional support of family. x
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you Jane. It has been a very stressful time lately but now that the funeral is out of the way perhaps we can take stock and maybe spend more time on other things. My remission is good news though I won’t be able to stop taking the awful drugs yet, if I ever can. My muscles are really hurting as I am doing more in the garden and around the house as well as taking a few long walks when we were on holiday. I’m hoping they toughen up soon as they are causing me to do odd things. If I look up and stretch my arms up to reach for something on a top shelf for example, the muscles in my thighs contract and I bend my knees! Very strange and slightly embarrassing in the supermarket!
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Jane said:
Yes, those drugs are very strong! I’m so sorry you have to keep taking them. I hope your muscles become less painful soon. Must be very frustrating, Clare. You poor woman. All the best. x
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you Jane! I am sure to be alright – I am quite a hopeful person and I’m well cared for x
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Thom Hickey said:
The tides of life throw so much at us sometimes – and you can’t say ‘just hold on for a moment!’. Sorry to hear of your loss. Regards Thom.
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you very much, Thom.
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Julie said:
Clare, I am so sorry to read your post, I know just how you feel as my Father-In-Law died last Wednesday, the funeral is in a couple of weeks time as there is a backlog here and my husband is reading the eulogy too. Along with Cynthia I am sending a virtual hug for you all. This really is a time of change for Richard, I hope he settles to retirement and that you both enjoy some quality time now. I am glad to read your hands are feeling better, that must be such a frustrating condition. What is Alice going to do with her PHD, your girls are forging path in their own unique ways, I hope Elinor gets on to the Graphic Design course, for the sake of a few marks that sounded harsh. Best wishes to you all and thinking of you, Julie x
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you so much Julie. May I send you my condolences too. I remember a post in which you spoke about your father-in-law and your fondness for him. We still can’t quite believe Joyce has gone. It took me some time to realise I wouldn’t see and hear my father again when he died 5 years ago. Alice has got to the stage now where she just wants any job that pays enough for her to be able to pay her bills and buy enough food to last the week. Her qualifications are in Librarianship and Information Studies but doesn’t have much work experience which is what counts these days. Best wishes to you and your family, Clare x
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Julie said:
I still have my own parents but I would be just like you. At our age I realise its all a part of life’s plan but its a tough process to go through. I really hope Alice finds a good job that she will be happy with as well as some of that necessary stuff to pay the bills. x
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you! It is hard, especially seeing parents becoming less able-bodied and more dependent on others (and often unhappy and frustrated by it all as well). Alice will get a decent job eventually I am sure. She has bi-polar disorder so I worry about her all the time but she seems to have the right drugs at present and as long as she doesn’t get too despondent and she can eat enough of the right foods she should be okay. x
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Aggie said:
Just yesterday I realized how long it had been since we’d heard from you, Clare, and I felt that something had happened. Then your post appeared. I am glad to hear that life is continuing with many positive, if too many, developments. My sympathies Richard and your family – I wish Joyce a beautiful transition.
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you so much, Aggie. I am sure Joyce is at peace now. She had a picture on her wall at home of a meadow with a gate at the far side of it. She said that when she died she wanted to run across the field, climb over the gate and she knew that her husband Eric would be waiting for her on the other side of the gate.
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Aggie said:
Thank you for sharing that. She must have had a peaceful, perhaps even joyful, passing.
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clarepooley33 said:
I hope so.
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Gallivanta said:
Clare, my condolences to you and the family. Not an easy time at all, but throughout your post there are the gentle reassuring depictions of nature, continuing on despite the changes and stresses in our human lives. I have listened to the Warsaw Concerto clip several times today. It is familiar to me but I don’t know why; perhaps something I heard on the radio in my younger days. It gave me a small glimmer of understanding of the spirit of your mother-in-law.
One of the best changes is in your remission. Such good news.
I am thinking of you and wishing you well.
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you Ann. Joyce was a strong woman who called a spade a shovel! She was 13 years old when WW2 started and 19 when it ended. She was generous and honest and unfortunately lived long enough to have lost her husband and all her old friends. She became so weak she couldn’t walk, she could hardly hear or see, she had heart problems and cancer. She had no fear of death and was ready to go whenever the time came. It didn’t stop her being interested in other people and caring for her family. The music suited her very well I thought.
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yeoldefoole said:
My condolences to you and your families.
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clarepooley33 said:
You are very kind; thank-you.
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Jill Weatherholt said:
Clare, I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with your family.
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you so much Jill.
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navasolanature said:
It is sad to lose someone and especially when you were nearby and hoping to spend time together. Your post is very moving and captures some lovely plants and places too. What a wet and grey August it has been but like you I have managed to spend time with good friends from past college days and that makes for so much warmth and fun. Wishing you all well and a happy time being retired
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you very much. We are still coming to terms with all the changes – nothing seems quite real yet.
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quietsolopursuits said:
It’s sad news indeed to hear of your mother in law’s death, my condolences to your family.
On the other hand, it’s good to hear that you are in remission, and may not need to continue the drugs.
With so much going on in your life, I’m surprised that you had the time to fill this post with a feast of various insects, flowers, landscapes, and everything else.
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you Jerry. I tried to write the post without photos but it all looked so stark and sounded so miserable. I always have my small camera with me and had collected a few photos and thought I’d add them to the post.
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New Hampshire Garden Solutions said:
I’m sorry to hear about your mother in law but at least with your husband retired he won’t have to worry about missing too much work.
I’m glad your arthritis is better. I used to work for a lady who had it in her hands and she suffered quite a bit.
I like the shots of the beach especially. Mallow must have quite a tolerance for salt air. That’s something I’ve never heard about.
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you Allen. Richard was looking forward to his retirement so that he could spend more time visiting and helping his mother! Life is strange isn’t it?
The Mallow here is as tough as old boots and seems to grow anywhere and everywhere.
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tootlepedal said:
I hope you have as much luck with the RA as I have had. I have been able to give up the medicine entirely and I am OK so far.
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clarepooley33 said:
I am so pleased to hear that! I had a previous remission that started in 1992 but ended six years later. I gave up all my drugs completely for that time and it was wonderful.
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tootlepedal said:
I’ll keep my fingers crossed for six years too then.
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clarepooley33 said:
I hope you get longer than that! Mine returned because I had another child!
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tootlepedal said:
I should be all right there then.
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Eva Xanthopoulos said:
These photos are absolutely stunning!
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you so much Eva!
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Eva Xanthopoulos said:
You’re welcome! 🙂
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Ste J said:
Blimey, you been having a busy time of late. Condolences on your loss and kudos to your daughter for getting the grades she did after missing two years, whilst grades are important, get her to start a blog and her English will soar…as a C student myself in English language and literature it has done me the world of good, people send me free stuff!
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you Ste. Elinor has a blog on Tumblr but I think she doesn’t write much in case anyone is horrible to her. She follows other people and occasionally posts a picture she has drawn or re-blogs things. She is a worrier!
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Ste J said:
There are always mean people about but also many cool people who support as well, I am confident she would feel the love over here on WordPress!
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clarepooley33 said:
I am sure she would too. I may persuade her yet!
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womanseyeview said:
I’m very sorry about your loss. There are some gorgeous photos here and what lovely butterflies! We have seen precious few here this year and I fear they are disappearing from our part of the world.
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you. We haven’t had many butterflies or dragonflies this year which has disappointed me. I found lots last year!
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Charlotte Hoather said:
I’m sorry to read of your bereavement and troubles Clare, keep strong. I know how unsettling changes are especially when they all come at once. I also know from my brother’s friends and mine how challenging it is to get the work places you dream of. You daughters are lucky to have such supportive parents.
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you Charlotte! How kind you are.
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lundygirl said:
Dear Clare, I’m thinking of you and your family at this time of loss. Take care of yourself. love, Rachel
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you very much, Rachel.
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Aquileana said:
Dear Clare….
Your post is so poignant and I truly think that you have a beautiful style to out things and feelings down in words…
I hope that good times come across you and yours soon… Remain hopeful, cheer up my friend… Life is full of twists and good and bad things are part of it!. (Changes, chances and challenges!)… Much love and appreciation!. Aquileana ⭐
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you my dear friend! You are quite right. With love, Clare xx
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dobetteralways said:
Not sure how I missed this post but my condolences for your loss. Its funny how quickly things can change, nature may take its time but with people it seems like we’re having to constantly adjust to rapid changes in our lives. It’s nice to hear you’re in remission and I hope your family finds themselves navigating more positive changes in the future. Loved all the pictures too 🙂
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you! As you know only too well, death can come so quickly and our whole world changes. My husband misses his mother very much but he is glad she didn’t suffer too much. We will no doubt cope with whatever happens in the future but it would be nice to have a few positives rather than all the negatives we’ve had lately. Have a lovely weekend!
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Karen's Nature Art said:
I was so sorry to hear about your loss. Getting out in nature is a very healing thing to do and your photos are lovely.
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clarepooley33 said:
Thank-you Karen! We found our walks so comforting! Much better than fretting indoors.
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